NEW YORK, NY.- In a way, I dont believe in old age. I hear people say, this hurts or that hurts, and they attribute that pain to old age. Its not age. Age is just time going by, and thats very mysterious.
I dont think about vanity much. I look in the mirror and if I think, I look young, thats good enough. Instead of wearing lipstick or rouge, I darken my eyebrows. I can express all kinds of things just with my eyebrows.
I do think about retiring, but stories and ideas keep coming. As Phyllis Hoge, a poet and my best friend, used to say, We wont die until weve finished our work.
I was born this way. From a very young age I just wanted to be a storyteller or a poet. I didnt know what I was going to write. I wasnt even aware at that age that I had nothing to write about.
Sometimes Ive thought, or had the illusion, that Ive been this way for two incarnations back. This is my third reincarnation as a writer. John Whalen-Bridge, who is writing my biography, is thinking of calling it American Bodhisattva. I dont go around thinking Im a bodhisattva, but I suspect that younger women see me in that way, as somebody who could help them, have mercy on them. Thats the impact Im having on young people. I just play the role of grandma for them.
Im not nostalgic myself. I dont like the feeling of nostalgia. Nostalgia has something to do with regret, the sadness of Oh, this time is over.
I dont like it when I have that feeling, but I dont seem to get it very often. I like to go into the new.
Current and upcoming projects: Second edition of Veterans of War, Veterans of Peace, a compilation of storytelling and poetry by wartime survivors, with new contributions by Israelis and Palestinians; revising (polishing, in her telling) a diary of the past decade.
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The New York Times.