Maria Alyokhina first came to the attention of Russian authorities and the world when her punk band and performance art group Pussy Riot staged a protest against President Vladimir Putin in Moscows Christ the Savior Cathedral.
For that act of rebellion in 2012, she was sentenced to two years in prison for hooliganism. She remained determined to fight Putins system of repression, even after being jailed six more times since the summer, each stint for 15 days, always on trumped-up charges aimed at stifling her political activism.
But in April, as Putin cracked down harder to snuff out any criticism of his war in Ukraine, authorities announced that her effective house arrest would be converted to 21 days in a penal colony. She decided it was time to leave Russia at least temporarily and disguised herself as a food courier to evade the Moscow police officers who had been staking out the friends apartment where she was staying. She left her cellphone behind as a decoy and to avoid being tracked.
A friend drove her to the border with Belarus, and it took her a week to cross into Lithuania. In a studio apartment in Vilnius, the Lithuanian capital, she agreed to an interview to describe a dissidents harrowing escape from Putins Russia.
I was happy that I made it, because it was an unpredictable and big kiss-off to Russian authorities, Alyokhina said, using a less polite term. I still dont understand completely what Ive done, she said, dressed in black except for a fanny pack with a rainbow belt.
Alyokhina, 33, has spent her entire adult life fighting for her country to respect its own constitution and the most basic human rights, like freedom of expression. After being freed early from prison in December 2013, she and another member of Pussy Riot founded Mediazona, an independent news outlet focused on crime and punishment in Russia.
She also wrote a memoir, Riot Days, and traveled internationally performing a show based on the book. Although her dream was to tour with it in Russia, only three venues agreed to host the show, and all faced repercussions.
Alyokhina was committed to remaining in Russia despite regular surveillance and pressure from authorities. But now she has joined the tens of thousands of Russians who have fled since the invasion of Ukraine.
Alyokhina, whose friends call her Masha, had bitten her nails down to stubs, and she puffed almost unceasingly on a vape or on Marlboro Lights. She made the journey in black, 3-inch platform boots without laces a nod to her many stints in jail, where shoelaces are confiscated.
In prison, she and others instead threaded moist towelettes through the eyelets of their shoes to keep them on. As a statement, she and other members of Pussy Riot will wear them while they perform during a tour, starting Thursday in Berlin, to raise money for Ukraine.
When it first began more than a decade ago, Pussy Riot seemed as much publicity stunt as political activism. But if its protest in the Moscow cathedral where they sang a Punk Prayer ridiculing the symbiosis that had developed between the Russian Orthodox Church and the Kremlin seemed overwrought at the time, today it appears prescient.
The churchs leader, Patriarch Kirill, recently blessed Russian troops going to Ukraine, and the European Union put his name on a proposed list of people to be sanctioned.
Exactly 10 years to the day after the cathedral protest, Putin delivered a ranting speech in which he called Ukraine a country created by Russia, laying the groundwork for his invasion.
Alyokhina listened to the speech on the radio from a jail cell. The invasion, she said, had changed everything not just for her, but for her country.
I dont think Russia has a right to exist anymore, she said. Even before, there were questions about how it is united, by what values it is united and where it is going. But now I dont think that is a question anymore.
During the interview she was surrounded by other members of the group, now a collective with about a dozen members. Most of them had also recently fled Russia, including her girlfriend, Lucy Shtein.
Shtein had chosen to leave Russia a month before, also evading restrictions on her movement by sneaking out in a delivery service uniform. Her decision came after someone posted a sign on the door of the apartment she shared with Alyokhina accusing them of being traitors.
Alyokhina and Shtein were once imprisoned for Instagram posts calling for the release of political prisoners in Russia. In February, Alyokhina was sentenced to 15 days for propaganda of Nazi symbolism over another Instagram post, this one from 2015, that criticized Putins ally, Belarusian dictator Alexander Lukashenko. Shtein was detained at the same time on similar charges.
They are scared because they cannot control us, Alyokhina said.
By the time she arrived at Belarus border with Lithuania, she had a Lithuanian visa that she tried to use with her Russian domestic ID, as Russia had confiscated her passport. By then she had been placed on Russias wanted list.
In her first attempt to cross, Alyokhina was held by Belarusian border guards for six hours before being sent back. On her second try, the incredulous officer on duty just sent her away.
But on the third try, she got through. Alyokhina had allies outside the country working to find her a path to freedom. One was Icelandic performance artist Ragnar Kjartansson, a friend who persuaded a European country to issue Alyokhina a travel document that essentially gave her the same status as an EU citizen. The countrys officials asked that it not be named.
The document was smuggled into Belarus for Alyokhina to use. While there, she avoided hotels or anywhere she would need to show proof of identity, which could tip off the people searching for her.
Alyokhina eventually boarded a bus to Lithuania with the document in hand. She laughed when she described how much better she was treated by the border guards when they thought of her as a European, rather than Russian.
A lot of magic happened last week, she said. It sounds like a spy novel.
The fact that she was able to get out of Russia and Belarus was a reflection, she said, of chaotic Russian law enforcement.
From here it looks like a big demon, but it is very disorganized if you look from the inside, she said. The right hand doesnt know what the left hand is doing.
Alyokhina said she hopes to return to Russia. But no one has any idea how that could happen, when even the most dedicated activists are imprisoned or forced into exile.
Every day in Vilnius, new members of the group were arriving, fleeing Russia and joining for rehearsals for the European tour.
After a few days, Alyokhina traveled to Iceland with some other group members to visit Kjartansson, who arranged for them to rehearse in the building that once housed the countrys High Court.
Alyokhina asked Kjartansson and Bjork, a relative of his, to perform at events organized by pro-Ukrainian activists when Pussy Riot performs in Iceland. The answer, Kjartansson said, was a resounding Yesss!
In Vilnius, Alyokhinas phone buzzed with messages of support and relief that she was now safe after the weeklong journey. Alyokhina chafed at these well-intentioned expressions, which she said were off the mark.
If your heart is free, she said, it doesnt matter where you are.
This article originally appeared in The New York Times